This summer has been punctuated with personal growth. In June, I gave up my full-time job in pursuit of blogging adventures and earning my MBA at UC Berkeley. I've had to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. I went from a steady paycheck and a job that was widely accepted by peers and family to pursuing something very few individuals understand - social media as a career. I know it's been difficult for the people around me to adjust. It all comes from a good place, fear for me and fear of uncertainty. It's hard to standby and watch someone close to you eschew societal norms. Some of them are probably thinking I've had a mental breakdown of sorts, ha. But the truth is I've had the dream of doing Instagram and YouTube full-time since 2010 or so, BUT my practical side said NO and that corporate jobs were steady, not to mention, who knows what the social landscape will look like in a few years. So I proceeded down a well accepted path, and while it had some glam moments like red carpet opportunites at the Golden Globes, I was miserable. I was miserable because I was chasing someone else's dream. I was miserable because I was putting other people's expectations and happiness above my own. I was miserable because my "people pleaser" self was running my life. Now that I've made the jump, of course I'm anxiety ridden, like OMG what if this was a HUGE mistake?!! But most days, I feel a sort of calm that is new to me, a calm or inner knowing that I'm on the right path. That this detour I've embarked on is exactly where I should be. Who the heck knows what the future holds? I certainly don't.... but I'm beginning to revel in the uncertainty as I find my way to happiness.
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Umar hasan
4/8/2020 02:53:35 pm
Hiya, seen your video on YouTube, that is where you would be able to find me, anyway, I think that you are good person, you have great potential, perhaps you should look into ISLAM, Type in either Google search, or YouTube, Asim al Hakeem, he is a good scholar, who has knowledge of real Islam, & practice real Islam, there is many strands, & Deviant sects, so you have to be careful, ABDUL BARY YAHYA, is another good scholar, best wishes, hope you find much happiness, real contentment, these couple of scholars may direct you to the journey to real success peace, being happy forever.
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